Calm Before the Disaster.

Day Three

2012-02-15T20:48:00.002-07:00

So today was arms and shoulders, I heard and felt my shoulders pop many time. I don't think it was hard but I know that I will being feeling it tomorrow.

Having food problems, food to mouth over taking me. no chocolate or soda, so feeling good about that part.

Any one out there have some good and healthy snack food?

K.

Day Two

2012-02-14T20:35:00.002-07:00

So Happy Valentines Day every one! Happy makes singles feel shitty day!

So my day 2 disc was a cardio workout and it was mostly yoga. My knees are torn up so I need to buy a yoga mat. bad carpet, bad.

Still haven't gottin the junk food out of my home. And I got alot of chocolate and I don't want it. Really need to get healthy food tomorrow.

Wish me luck.

K.

Day One

2012-02-13T19:32:00.002-07:00

Well if I do this tomorrow I might just have a pattern going on. HAHAHAHa.

Anyway did my disc this afternoon. So the worst part is over, did not get the junk food out today. Forgot that I had a class of money savings. Part one of three done, and day one out of 90 done. Short term goals, 1/3 and 1/90 done.

Now if only I could sleep normally. Not the great game of will it be 1 am or 4 am that I pass out? Because I get to wake up at 7 am. Wish me luck.

K.

Day Zero....

2012-02-12T22:15:00.002-07:00

Have you ever woke up one day and just have no clue how you ended up where you are? I really don't like who i am anymore. Hell I don't even know who i am anymore. What do I want? Where do I want to be at this point in my life? Becuase being alone and feeling huge is not a good starting point.

Starting today I am going to blog daily about my hopes and wants. Tomorrow is day one of P90X and my new way of eating. No soda, No junk food, and No more drinking. Need to go thru my food to get rid of junk from my home. Get good food tomorrow night.

So any words of encouragement would be wonderful.
I think I will need them.

K.

2010-04-04T06:37:00.001-06:00

Happy Zombie Jesus Day!

2010-01-25T20:32:00.001-07:00

Emotional Break down. Check.

Day 01

2010-01-24T15:07:00.001-07:00

OK I hope this will be day one of my blog yet again, don't promise anything. got my phone connected so that should make it easier. maybe.

that's all for now.

K.

Only Been a Year and Six months,

2009-11-15T01:52:00.001-07:00

OK so where to start which is normally where i always start due to lack of being on here. But i truly am going to try this time. Been a year and more then six months. so figure check here out again. Wendy dissed me. so did every one else. i under stand due to not being on here. but I'm back and lets see how this round goes.

no cops no whammies.

lol

K.

May the Goddess Hear me

2008-07-19T22:14:00.002-06:00

SO i am just going to ramble which i guess is a a healthy thing to do every once in a while. so hey. I want so many things right now in my life witch i guess i could say are little gifts that i don't have them but i just so scared that i will never have them. If you have not figured out what i want is this : 1. A family, that does not judge me. 2. Some one that will truly love me. 3. Children. 4.I want the American dream i guess. the house, cars, just the dream of happiness and no divorce, growing old with some that will laugh with me as our body's fall apart..

scares me is that for that to happen i think i have to wash my hands of what i think is right and just walk away. and let what is mine or supposed to be mine to come to me. and what happens if i do that and nothing comes. Well its nice to know that my true fear is dyeing alone and the horrible part of that is that we all die alone, no matter what. IS a soul mate something stupid to wish for?

hmmmm...................ME

2008-07-19T22:10:00.002-06:00

Dirty after work.

So Whats the deal?

2008-07-02T20:46:00.002-06:00

Well if your wondering what is going on with me to make so many changes. No idea here. just came to a point i guess where i was feeling about what i didn't do what i haven't done. What i might have missed. but what the fuck am i doing that for? I have had a great life some crappy spots but in the over all end, I'm not sick, dead, homeless or any thing like that. I can pay my way. that is good. I wish i was in love and maybe have kids soon. but that is all in the hands of fate. which i understand can be very humorous and cruel at the same time.

Now on things will be different, I want everything. I deserve everything that i can dream of. i don't need your approval in the end cuz i will be faced and judged by higher beings.

I used to become so angry so fast, now it takes a while i will feel sadness before anger now. I don't like it. not really, i understand the concept of it. safer for me.

A warning i guess for anyone who reads this. no one i think any more. but i will be falling off the radar for a few days. I won't be me when i come back.

warning you.

K

In need

2008-06-29T22:38:00.001-06:00

Ok so i feel very needy right now. i want love. ok heads up world. lets rock it!

right now

2008-06-29T22:37:00.001-06:00

ow we

2008-06-04T13:30:00.002-06:00

So on last friday i had 5 teeth removed, 4 wisdom "so i am now an idiot i guess" and one moller which was distroyed by an impacted wisdom tooth. but i have pics to put up none that are gross sorry forgot to take them, and i got a few storys and tails to tell.

and damn it i want to go to build a bear...... another story.

night and take your pain pills!!!!

me again

2008-05-04T08:35:00.002-06:00

plants

2008-05-04T08:27:00.003-06:00

me

2008-05-04T08:24:00.001-06:00

truth

2008-05-03T12:01:00.001-06:00

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2008-04-19T12:43:00.001-06:00

You're Totally Sarcastic

You sarcastic? Never! You're as sweet as a baby bunny.

Seriously, though, you have a sharp tongue - and you aren't afraid to use it.

And if people are too wimpy to deal with your attitutde, then too bad. So sad.

How Sarcastic Are You?

hehe

2008-04-19T12:40:00.000-06:00

Your Hair Should Be Purple

Intense, thoughtful, and unconventional.

You're always philosophizing and inspiring others with your insights.

What's Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

22%

2008-03-29T22:54:00.000-06:00

You Are 22% Pure

Pure? Sure, you're about as pure as yellow snow.

You're a downright devil. But you're also a pretty delightful one!

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2008-03-29T22:41:00.001-06:00

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2008-03-29T22:14:00.001-06:00

Son Of A B I T C H !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-03-18T12:30:00.001-06:00

So i washed my cell phone last night, so please if you have my nuber call me or email me it please!!!!!!

hum?

2008-03-14T01:58:00.002-06:00

ok so i am very tired and should be asleep but can't cuz i'm weird. wish me luck on sleepin. night

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2008-03-14T01:50:00.001-06:00

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2008-03-14T01:40:00.000-06:00

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2008-03-14T01:39:00.000-06:00

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2008-03-14T01:30:00.000-06:00

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True

2008-03-08T12:59:00.002-07:00

At point A you think that point b will be better but we all know that the grass is always greener on the other side. You run and run for what you think is what you want. you fight crawl and swear your way there. but what happenes when you don't even move? Run for your life. when you think you move and you don't even move, run for your life. Forward but never straight, I like that, growing forward is all ways the hardest thing to do, growing up i think might be the 3rd hardest. for when you grow up most people lose the innocence that we should all have. Not growing is the 2nd hardest.

What ever happened to being true?

To Be

2008-02-29T13:57:00.002-07:00

To be one, A part

To be Two, A part of a whole

To have love true

To have love unconditional

To be understood

To be excepted for you

To have an equal

To be matched on all things

To need someone as much as they need you

new friend

2008-02-07T12:33:00.000-07:00

Like i said Wendy i would put up a pic.

Feb 1st.

2008-02-01T23:13:00.000-07:00

Ok so i have no real place to start so yeah, boring here. I fell on my ass and just layed there on the ice. sad for me sorry no pics of the markings. nearly killed my self showering on tuesday night, i might put up the gross leg pic. um going to be drinking to night, got my dr jeckle and mr hyde bottles today, so hopefully i will still be drunk or i should be well rounded for the partying tommarrow night, good i hope i completely piss off my co-worker becuase i am just that much hotter then her.

ok enough of that.

i really have no news just a heads up that i'm alive.

peace
lv
K

what made me me

2008-01-26T15:08:00.000-07:00

What Made Me Me>>>>>>

Long ago and far away,> In a land that time forgot,> Before the days of Dylan,> Or the dawn of Camelot.>>>> There lived a race of innocents,> And they were you and me,> Long ago and far away> In the Land That Made Me Me.>>>> For Ike was in the White House> In that land where we were born,> Where navels were for oranges,> And Peyton Place was porn.>>>> We learned to help our mothers,> We washed our hair at dawn,> We spread our crinolines to dry> In circles on the lawn.>>>> We longed for love and romance,> And waited for our prince,> And Eddie Fisher married Liz,> (But no one's seen him since).>>>>>> We danced to 'Little Darlin',> And sang to 'Stagger Lee'> And cried for Buddy Holly> In the Land That Made Me Me.>>>> Only girls wore earrings then,> And 3 was one too many,> And only boys wore flat-top cuts,> Except for Jean McKinney.>>>> And only in our wildest dreams> Did we expect to see> A boy named George with Lipstick,> In the Land That Made Me Me.>>>> We fell for Frankie Avalon,> Kookie was oh, so nice,> And when they made a movie,> They never made it twice.>>>> We didn't have a Star Trek Five,> Or Psycho Two & Three,> Or Rocky-Rambo Twenty> In the Land That Made Me Me.>>>> Miss Kitty had a heart of gold,> And Chester had a limp,> And Reagan was a Democrat> Whose co-star was a chimp.>>>> We had a Mr. Wizard,> But not a Mr. T,> and Oprah couldn't talk yet> In the Land That Made Me Me.>>> We had our share of heroes,> We never thought they'd go,> At least not Bobby Darin,> Or Marilyn Monroe.>>>> For youth was still eternal,> And life was yet to be,> And Elvis was forever> In the Land That Made Me Me.>>>> We'd never seen the rock band> That was Grateful to be Dead,> And Airplanes weren't named Jefferson ,> And Zeppelins were not Led.>>>> And Beatles lived in gardens then,> And Monkees lived in trees,> Madonna was a virgin> In the Land That Made Me Me.>>>>>> We'd never heard of microwaves,> Or telephones in cars,> And babies might be bottle-fed,> But they weren't grown in jars.>>>> And pumping iron got wrinkles out,> And 'gay' meant fancy-free,> And dorms were never coed> In the Land That Made Me Me.>>>> We hadn't seen enough of jets> To talk about the lag,> And microchips were what was left> At the bottom of the bag.>>>> And hardware was a box of nails,> And bytes came from a flea,> And rocket ships were fiction> In the Land That Made Me Me.>>>> Buicks came with portholes,> And side shows came with freaks,> And bathing suits came big enough> To cover both your cheeks.>>>> And Coke came just in bottles,> And skirts came to the knee,> And Castro came to power> In the Land That Made Me Me.>>>> We had no Crest with Fluoride,> We had no Hill Street Blues,> We all wore superstructure bras> Designed by Howard Hughes.>>>> We had no patterned pantyhose> Or Lipton herbal tea> Or prime-time ads for condoms> In the Land That Made Me Me.>>>> There were no golden arches,> No Perrier to chill,> And fish were not called Wanda,> And cats were not called Bill.>>>> And middle-aged was 35> And old was forty-three,> And ancient were our parents> In the Land That Made Me Me.>>>> But all things have a season,> Or so we've heard them say,> And now instead of Maybelline> We swear by Retin-A.>> And they send us invitations> To join AARP,> We've come a long way, baby,> From the Land That Made Me Me.>>>> So now we face a Brave New World> In slightly larger jeans,> And wonder why they're using> Smaller print in magazines.>>> And we tell our children's children> How life then used to be,> Long ago and far away> In the Land That Made Me Me

SAD

2008-01-22T13:37:00.000-07:00

Why is it when you need that little bit of extra compation no one is there????
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I get it no one loves me.

*screams runs to the corner, curles up in to ball and crys*

hehe

2008-01-17T13:14:00.000-07:00

1/11/08.3

2008-01-11T11:01:00.000-07:00

1/11/08.2

2008-01-11T10:59:00.000-07:00

My new cookie jar!

1/11/08.1

2008-01-11T10:55:00.001-07:00

I got new shirts!!!

Bull Shit

2008-01-08T10:42:00.000-07:00

SIOUX CITY, Iowa -- The investigation continues into the death of two girls found in a burning home in Sioux City on Sunday.
Police said the girls, Kendra Suing, 10, and Alysha Suing, 8, were the victims of a ritual slaying. Their stepfather, Lawrence Harris Sr., is charged with two counts of first-degree murder.
Police said Harris had been performing "some strange ritual" and told officers he cast a spell that went bad.
Police Chief Joe Frisbie said the girls were dead before the fire and appear to have died of strangulation and stab wounds. He said an official cause of death won't be released for several days.
Frisbie said the fire started in the basement of the two-story home.
Harris is being held in the Woodbury County jail on $2 million bond.

This pisses me off, he was performing a spell? OK i am pagan and do rituals and spells but i have never needed to kill children. this had nothing to do with a spell he is not right in the head. any one who kills is not right, even soldiers are not, they have to go threw training to do that, and once you go to that line there is no real way to get back not all the way. I am really way to upset to continue this right now.

K

venus

2008-01-04T11:34:00.001-07:00

._.

2008-01-04T11:31:00.000-07:00

The birth of Venus, beauty in a human size, she is not a 0 here, she is woman and curves! but man does not want that seen, for we must cover ourselves in lies so others may find us beautiful.

I enjoy being different even odd some days.

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2008-01-04T11:21:00.000-07:00

Doing what you love untill death due you part.

Beauty!

2008-01-04T11:19:00.000-07:00

go here!!!!

2008-01-03T08:38:00.000-07:00

http://www.tshirthell.com/store/clicks.php?partner=katiegirllascruces83

things

2008-01-02T12:34:00.000-07:00

Condoms: Yep
Cell phone: yep
Chair/stool: no
Book shelf: no
Dresser: yes
Computer/laptop: no
Bean bag: no
Pictures: nope
Mirror(s): one
Skateboard: no
Bed: yeah.
Clothes on the floor: no my rooms spotless
Plastic flamingo: uh.................... shhhhh you werent supossed to tell anyone...
Surfboard: no
Smoke detector: no
Piano/keyboard/guitar/bass/drums: nope
Locking door?: oh yes
Bottle of water: a few
A blacklight: nope
Medals/ribbons: nope
Awards: nope
Sports equipment: nope. well my runnin shoes
CDs: a shitload
Hidden bottles of liquor: nope
Stop sign/any sign: nope
Caution tape: nope
Paintball gun: no.
Real Gun: no
Cigarettes: no
Books: yep
Nintendo: no
Xbox: nope
Stereo: no
Television: no
Lighter: nope
Gum: yip
How many Windows do you have in your room?:2
What color are your walls?: white
Hardwood floor, tile, or carpet? carpet
Do you get ready for the day in your room or the bathroom? both while throwing clothes all over my room haha
What color is your bed sheets? cream
What's on your walls? neither
Has the opposite sex been in your room before? um yessssssss

223

2008-01-02T11:59:00.000-07:00

1) Single, Taken, or married?
Single

2) Are you happy with that?
Yes and No

3) Would you still kiss your ex?
Yes

4) Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes

5) Are you single?
Yep

6) Have you ever talked about marriage with another person?
with an ex

7) Do you want kids?
If i'm able

8) How Many?
many

9.) If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
damn straight

10) Do you like someone?
yes

11) Have you ever fallen in love?
yea but i have also fallen out of love and in love again

12) Do you believe that you can change for someone?
its on your own terms you can yes

13.) Is it a good day?
for the most part

14) What is your "American Dream"?
Happy

15) Does your ex still have feelings for you?
I think so.

Day one

2008-01-02T09:25:00.000-07:00

ok so today is my first day of Tax season (i miss you wendy!), and i am already on blogger, my updates should incress! yeah, so just to let every one know!

HAppy New Year!!!

2007-12-31T18:54:00.000-07:00

Ok i just wanted to let every one know that i am ok!!!! I start my second job on wednesday!!!!! yeah more income!!!!!

But also to wish every one a great new year!!! and if you want to talk to me send me an e-mail cuz i can get those but it is hard for me to get here. i am going to try harder but i promise nothing!!!!

Much love
K

My place

2007-12-17T12:48:00.000-07:00

Kitchen
Bathroom
living room
extra bed room

My bed room, with my brand new bed set

About me i guess

2007-12-13T12:53:00.000-07:00

[Marital Status]
single and looking

[Shoe size]
8 i think

[Parents still together]
yuppers

[Siblings]
one brother, john

[Pets]
my cat, Squiggles

FAVORITES

[Color]
any color, lime green

[Number]
8

[Animal]
my cat

[Drinks]
liquid cocaine

[Soda]
Coke

[Book]
none right now.

[Flower]
lilac

DO YOU

[Color your hair?]
yeah,

[Twirl your hair?]
can now

[Have tattoos?]
six

[Have Piercings?]
i think it is up to 13 now.

[Cheat on tests/homework?]
no/yes

[Drink/Smoke?]
socially/no

[Like roller coasters?]
some of them

[Wish you could live somewhere else?]
Ireland, Australia

[Want more piercings?]
possibly

[Like cleaning?]
some of the time

[Write in cursive or print?]
combination

[Own a web cam?]
yeah

[Know how to drive?]
do i?

[Own a cell phone?]
yep i do

[Ever get off the damn computer?]
only to sleep, or have to be at work

HAVE U EVER

[Been in a fist fight?]
yes

[Considered a life of crime?]
can't say that i have, sorry

[Considered being a hooker?]
umm...no

[Lied to someone?]
of course

[Been in love?]
yes

[Made out with JUST a friend?]
yes

[Been in lust?]
yeah

[Used someone]
nope

[Been used?]
yes

[Been cheated on?]
yes

[Kicked someone in the nuts?]
not with pre-planning

[Stolen anything?]
clepto when i was younger

[Held a gun]
yep

CURRENTS

[Current clothing]
wet snow clothes

[Current mood]
content

[Current taste]
peppermint

[What you currently smell like]
peppermint

[Current hair]
long and shaggy

[Current thing I ought to be doing]
relaxing

[Current CD in stereo]
nickleback

[Last book you read]
i don't know

[Last movie you saw]
Fast and the Furious

[Last thing you ate]
mac and cheese

[Last person you talked to on the phone]
mom

[Do drugs?]
oh yeah all the time (SARCASM)

[Believe there is life on other planets?]
of course

Remember your first love?]
yes, and i still think of him from time to time

[Still love him/her?]
in a way, but I'll never hate him

[Read the newspaper?]
comics all the way, and the puzzles, and every now and again I'll catch something with sports
*gasp*

[Have any gay or lesbian friends?]
uhhh...yeah

[Believe in miracles?]
uh huh

[Do well in school?]
did yeah

[Wear hats]
only my hat when its cold outside, have to keep my earsies warm

[Hate yourself?]
no

[Have an obsession?]
yes, mirrors

[Collect anything?]
glass ware

[Have a best friend?]
yeah, i think

[Close friends?]
uh huh

[Like your handwriting?]
yeah

[Care about looks]
somewhat, public appearance for sure

LOVE LIFE

[First crush]
in high school

[First kiss]
preschool

[Do you believe in love at first sight?]
it CAN happen

[Do you believe in "the one?"]
yes

[Are you a tease?]
Ive been called that before

[Too shy to make the first move?]
yeah, (SARCASM)

ARE U A

[Daydreamer]
yeah

[Bitch/Asshole]
sometimes/no

[sarcastic]
let me think about that one, does that answer your question

[Angel]
the halo is...

[Devil]
...supported by my horns

[Shy]
oh yeah

[Talkative]
uh huh

pass the time, no # 5, or 97

2007-12-09T13:59:00.000-07:00

1. Made out for more than 3 minutes?
probably so

2. Slept in a different bed?
oh yeah

3. Made out in a movie theatre?
yes, more then that too.

4. Made out with 2 different people in one night?
yes

6. Been in love?
yes

7. Slept in?
every time i can!

8. Taken a shower with the opposite sex?
yes

9. Gone over the speed limit?
uh, yeah.

10. Painted your room?
yep

11. Drove a car?
that's how i live

12. Danced in front of your mirror?
if you can call it dancing

13. Gotten a hickey?
yeah.

14. Been dumped?
yes.

15. Stolen money from a friend?
nope, father yes

16. Gotten in a car with people you just met?
a few times, yes

17. Been in a fist fight?
define

18. Snuck out of your house?
yes,

19. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?
oh yeah

20. Been arrested?
no. but almost

21. Made out with a stranger?
define stranger?

22. Left your house with out telling your parents?
yup

23. Had a crush on your neighbor?
not to my knowledge

24. Ditched school to do something more fun?
yeah, the grounding was worth it.

25. Slept in a bed with a member of the same or opposite sex?
yeah, dog pile!

26. Seen someone die?
nope

27. Been on a plane?
many a time

28. Kissed a picture?
maybe!

29. Slept in until 3?
yep

30. Love someone or miss someone right now?
yes...

31. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?
yeah, it was pretty interesting

32. Made a snow angel?
yeah, but they never came out looking very good

33. Played dress up?
not as much as most little girls.

34. Cheated while playing a game?
yeah, guilty monopoly

35. Been lonely?
fuck yeah.

36. Fallen asleep at work/school?
yep

37. Gotten Drunk.
yep

38. Felt an earthquake?
nope

39. Touched a snake?
yes, they're cool!

40. Ran a red light?
yep nearly died on Friday

41. Been suspended from school?
kind of, it was in school suspension lol

42. Had detention?
yeah i think i still have some left.

43. Been in a car?
well yeah

44. Hated the way you look?
sometimes

45. Witnessed a crime?
a few,

46. Been lost?
yeah, in many ways

47. Been to the opposite side of the country?
no

48. Felt like dying from embarrassment?
multiple times

49. Cried yourself to sleep?
let's not talk about that today

50. Sang karaoke?
no

51. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do?
plenty of times

52. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose?
yep even my eyes

53. Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
yes, and it was good :)

54. Kissed in the rain?
nope

55. Sung in the shower?
ya

56. Had a dream that you married someone?
not that i can recall

57. Played getting married?
no

58. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?
no!

59. Ever gone to school partially nude?
little

60. Been a.... a hoe?
Halloween

61. Sat on a roof top?
yes

62. Didn't take a shower for a week?
2 days

63. Ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone?
yes lol

64. Played chicken?
no

65. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
yep.

66. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger?
yes

67. Broken a bone?
no, and i hope i never do

68. Been easily amused?
all the time lol

69. Laugh so hard you cry?
yes!

70. Cheated on a test?
oh yes

71. Forgotten someones name?
yes

72. Blacked out from drinking?
yep

73. Played a prank on someone?
yes, a few times

74. Gone to a late night movie?
what's considered late-night?

75. Made love to anything not human?
hahahaha nope

76. Failed a class?
now that i think of it, more than twice.

77. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat?
shhhhhh!!!!!!

78. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours?
nope

79. Cheated on a girlfriend/boyfriend?
n.....

80. Did you celebrate the 4Th of July?
nope

81. Thrown strange objects?
yes

82. Felt like someone?
sometimes

83. Thought about running away?
yes,

84. Ran away?
yes

85. Had detention and not attend it?
yes

86. Made parents cry?
maybe

87. Cried over someone?
yes

88. Owned more than 5 sharpies?
maybe

89. Dated someone more than once?
yes

90. Have a dog?
nope

91. Own an instrument?
no

92. Been in a band?
no i wish

93. Drank 25 sodas in a day?
yes

94. Broken a cd?
yes

95. Shot a gun?
paint ball

96. Been on myspace for more than 5 hours?
not just on myspace. i could be online that long

98. Have a major crush on someone right now?
mmm. every thing's mixed up, i don't know.

99. Have a religion?
higher beings are lovely, lots of different things

100. Thought about what people would say at your funeral?
once or twice.

bored

2007-12-09T13:14:00.000-07:00

Starting Time:
2:36 pm

Name:
Katie

Sisters
:None

Brothers:
One

Eye Color:
blue- grey

Height:
5'5"

What are you wearing rite now:
Sweatshirt and t-shirt, ow yeah pants

Favorite number:
8

Favorite drink:
non-alcoholic:
liking tea at the moment
alcoholic:
pretty much anything but beer

Favorite Month:
? October

***********Have You Ever*****************Gone

Vegetarian:
yes failed badly

Bungee jumped:
not yet

Made yourself throw up:
yes

Gone skinny dipping:
Yes, few times!

Broken a bone:
No

Been in a police car:
um... yeah

Rode in a plane:
Yes several times

Came close to dying:
Not really

Broken someones heart:
Don't know about broken but...

Cried when someone died:
yes

Fell off your chair:
Sadly more than once

Saved e-mails:
Lord yes, more due to procrastination than anything

Been cheated on?
Yes

***********What is****************

Your room color?
white

Next door?
garage

Whats right behind you:
the chair

Whats the last thing you ate?
pizza

--------------------------Ever Had- -------------------------------

Chicken pox:
yes, more then once

Stitches:
nope

---------------------Do You------------------------------------

Believe in love at first sight:
lust most likely, love takes time

Like picnics?
yes, but never get to go

Like School:
I do I'm a nerd

------------------------Questions----------------------------------------

Who was the last person you called:
Doug

Who was the last person you danced with?
Sabine

--------------------------Who---------------------------------------------

Did you last yell at?
me

Do you like filling these out:
It's a love hate relationship

Do u like yourself:
I try to

--------------------Final Questions---------------------------

What are you listening to right now?
The t.v.

Hated someone in your family:
Hate is so strong a word and family is so complex, been very upset with? yes

Where do you want to get married:
Outside under the moon i think

Good driver:
is it snowing?

Good singer:
maybe

Diamonds or pearls:
Eh... depends

Outdoors or indoors:
if it's nice outdoors

----------------------------Today did you------------------------------

Talk to someone you like:
Y

Buy something:
Nope

Get sick?
No

Sing:
Yes, often at work

Talked to an ex:?
Yes

Miss someone:
yes, as much as I try not to

------------------------Last person who---------------------------

was in your bed:
blue

Saw you cry:
Saw it?

Made you cry:
....

You went to the movies with?
m

You went to the shopping center with?
R. along time ago

Have you ever starved yourself?
i guess if I'm sot hungry

Are you the youngest in your family?
Yes

Whats your favorite sport?
Football I guess

Relationship status:
single and Confused

Ever been in a fight with your pet?
no i left her in New Mexico, i miss her

Been to Mexico:
Not yet

Been to Canada?
nope

Been to Africa:
Not yet

Been to Australia?
soon

-----------------------Random-----------------------

What books are you reading right now?
none

Future kids names:
worry about that later

What's under your bed?
space

Favorite sport to watch:
football

Favorite location?
to many

Piercing/Tattoos:
ear, 6 tattoo

What are you most afraid of right now?
Never finding my place in the world or the feeling that I'm where I'm supposed to be

Who do you really hate:
Actually I try not to hate

Ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with?
Hasn't everyone

Are you lonely?
Yes

Have you ever played strip poker:
Yes

What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
eyes, lips, hands

time Finished:
2:57 pm

Ditch

2007-12-03T23:57:00.000-07:00

OK so on Saturday the 1st of December, we had a bad snow storm and yours truly was out and about. And all ready to be in and out of the ditch. so here are the pictures of my adventure.

2007-12-03T23:31:00.001-07:00

I am not Dead Yet!

2007-11-29T23:59:00.000-07:00

OK so i get my own place tomorrow, or later today depending on how you look at the time!!!

Will be posting pics soon.

changed my hair again, and of the new place.

just letting you know all is well.

K

About Me....? yep

2007-11-19T12:50:00.001-07:00

What kind of Pagan are you?
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You scored as Shamanic Pagan

A shamanic pagan's roots are generally found in Native American faith. A true love and respect for the earth and all that it yields is central to their faith. Wisdom is most often found in spirit guides or totems, who can be animals, ancestors, or spirits. Pagans who follow this path tend to be far more aware of the delicate web that interweaves the lives of every person and thus move within that web accordingly. They're usually deeply insightful, friendly, loving people and excellent friends and parents. Mysterious and strong, as well, they are often the protectors of their friends and family as well as the moral compass for their friends and loved ones.

Shamanic Pagan

75%

Ecclectic Pagan

70%

Egyptian Pantheonic Pagan

65%

Celtic Pantheonic Pagan

55%

Zoroastrian Pagan

45%

Greek Pantheonic Pagan

45%

Sumerian, Babylonian, and Mesopotamian Pagans

45%

Roman Pantheonic Pagan

45%

Eastern Pagan

45%

Kabbalistic Pagan

35%

Norse Pantheonic Pagan (Asatru)

25%

Catholic (Pagan?)

15%

new me

2007-11-12T23:23:00.000-07:00

I Know I'm Hott!

.

2007-11-11T16:55:00.000-07:00

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!!

2007-10-31T12:39:00.001-06:00

purple hair ties

2007-10-27T09:00:00.000-06:00

ok os going to go see saw 4 tonight, ill let you know if it is any good, got paid, having to go get gas now for my truck. so talk to every one later.

?.

2007-10-23T11:40:00.001-06:00

i think i have a secret admirer at work.

Bite not Wait

2007-10-18T12:32:00.000-06:00

OK so i started work on Monday, so that is the reason that i have not posted in a while, already doing over time how some what cool is that? but anyway doing good, don't get paid till next week. so got some sucking up to do this coming week.

but i am going to go. I still need to shower, was to tired when i got home last night, or was that really early this morning? anyway i think i will feel better after so going to go do that.

post later, with some pic!

K

Nothing

2007-10-14T13:28:00.000-06:00

Am i worth nothing?

I really want to know. cuz for some reason I'm not worth the respect of people, well some person i know. I am so pissed, am i supposed to wait for every one else? I so want to FUCKING SCREAM.

My heart hurts.

worth nothing

crying
K

Box

2007-10-14T10:55:00.000-06:00

OK so life is a box no matter what size you think your box is. There is only 6 sides. well six on the inside and six on the out side but hey no on e really ever deals with the out side. you learn to live and love in the inside. That makes me think that we all are already dead men. just have not realized it yet, making memory's to last us when we do. I want to look back and be damn. But i think that even thou we come into this world alone and leave it alone. we are never truly alone, we have our guides and who believe in us all the time. but that makes me think that i know that we die, really in the end not a big thing for we are all reborn at some point, 20 years 200 years we come back, is right now that point? is right now that death point? i know everything is real because our brain makes it. So when we die are we going to go back to the web? or we going to start over? which in a way is the same both ways.

I really need to stop thinking for a while my brain feels muddled.
K

Hello There!!

2007-10-09T21:45:00.000-06:00

Ok so just a quick update. got a new cell phone, verizon incase any one i know has that let me know! but on a darker note haveing alot of computer issues. so if there are days between posts its not that i';m dead just unable and will post when able!!

doing good did ny physical today for my soon to be job!!!!! then out of here! maybe a sleep over when that happens? what does every one say?

going to bed

lv

K

define irony

2007-10-07T23:52:00.000-06:00

a group of people dancing on a plane to a band made famous for dieing in a plane crash.

I'm doing ok, i feel very lonely but i guess that is my own fault. i wish i had some one here i could talk to who wanted to hang out with me. does that make sence? that is what the title means, i moved to find my self but yet in the process i am lonely becuase i want friends. define irony.

going to go to bed
night
K

wow

2007-10-06T20:50:00.000-06:00

new hair

2007-10-05T22:14:00.004-06:00

Rock this...

2007-10-05T22:14:00.003-06:00

So I did not fall off the side of the world just a lot of crap had happened. None that I really want to talk about. Just crap. You all know what I am talking about!

Tomorrow is that last farmers market. Going to get up early and try and sell. Made new stuff hopefully they like it enough to buy. Buy damn you buy!!!!!! Anyway. On lighter news got my hair cut, got ride of the swan tail. I think it looked better. Just really short compared to a couple of hours ago. But I feel better.
Pictures next. So off to do that!

Lets Rock this!!!

K

I wish life

2007-10-05T22:14:00.001-06:00

I wish life was easy every now and again. But I guess its better that its difficult. To know that in the end you made it. I know that you are born alone and die alone but still the jorney of ones life is up hill. No niceties here, just the truth. I wish I had did things differently at times I wish I trusted easier, love with out hurt, and not expect the worst from every one I don’t know.

My heart hurts. Just in general I feel so alone. It took nearly 4 hours for me to go out last night. God am I back in high school? Had an interview today. I hope they call tomorrow and go do the pee test and start soon, cuz then if all I do is work then I can be out of here in one month, 2 bedroom apartments is only $325. I think that is pretty good since in New Mexico a 2 bedroom is 400. I am thinking about the 3 bedroom, its only 400. Why not right? Going to be making around 2 grand a month.

Ok so I got it. They just called me, and yes I said yes. Drug test tomorrow, then most likely start on Monday. So yea rock that!!!!! I will be getting out a lot faster then I thought. Yeah yeah yeah yeah.!!!!!! So Doug yes you were right my parents are so crazy and not in a fun way. Found out the they have some one following me, and they have “sources” which make me feel non trusted and want to break an entering some place just to see if they find out. Like being in jail but a little worse. Never had to deal with my parent fucking pouting. I don’t understand.? I am so going to be out by the end of the month. Ye ha!!!!!!!!!!! I am so stoked!!!

My mother was like you are going to be able to get out sooner then you thought. She sounds sad but yet in a way relieved. I think they walked around naked and I broke that.

me thursday night

2007-10-05T22:10:00.000-06:00

Think about me

2007-09-30T18:17:00.000-06:00

Ok so its been a few days but no i did not die. just not really a reason to type. I 've been in Iowa for around 5 day, had a birthday and thank you every one that wished me a good one. you bitches rock!!!!!

anyway going to go see a movie not sure which one yet. for we as in Iowa is under a tornado warning, yeah!

I went to the historical association annual fall fling today. i had alot of fun, made a basket. I'll put pics up later. i thought it was pretty neat.

doing OK, bored. had an interview on Friday and another this coming 3rd. i hope i get it. wish me luck. i need a job its hard to be here with my parents. pity for me. but then if i get the job then i can get the hell out!!!

anyway got to go. close to time to temp the weather and get to my movie.

K

Happy birthday to me

2007-09-27T22:09:00.000-06:00

so my birthday is today the 27th. sorry i have not been on just alot of altogether crap to deal with.

sad about today, wanted to do more but hey when you don't know people prety hard.

I'm 24 so almost a 1/4 of the way there.

K

English muffins and diet pills

2007-09-20T11:25:00.000-06:00

don't ask about the title it just came to mind.

Just remember that:

THE HARDEST WAY TO GROW IS FORWARD.

going to go cry.

k

2007-09-17T02:13:00.000-06:00

hot

2007-09-17T02:12:00.000-06:00

thats what is up.

2007-09-17T02:06:00.001-06:00

Ice Tea and Hummas

2007-09-14T17:47:00.000-06:00

So I'm here by myself which was kinda hard to do. I am eating by myself and it is nice. I'm having Hummus and a tall Ice Tea. It is so good sense with it being 102 out. anyway, my rant is back up, fuck what others think if its bad. I'll take your complements that is great. I like my self working on loving myself. but if you want to come here and pout then fuck off.

So my plans for tonight fell thru very up setting. the club we were supposed to go to is closed!!! Damn you DIDO! Damn you! anyway trying to figure out what we are going to go do. I want to get a few beers and some movies and maybe have an orgy. i think that would be fun!! HAHAHAHAHAHAH. that is to funny. I think right now that i am so HORNY that i would kill every one involved. but i guess i have more important things to worry about then sex right now. well i don't know if its more important then sex. sex is very important for a healthy mind and body. but that is a different day rant.

So i leave a week from this coming Monday. I think i will be fine. I know i will miss a few people from here. but really not that many. I could leave and not have a problem, which i know is bad of me but that is how i feel.

Well she was a close friend, we were supposed to see each other today. have not talked to her in over a year she moved to Florida with out letting me know. she is in town for the next two days. and she blew me off this afternoon. and i remember why i really didn't miss her. she did that the last time we had plans. just never showed. makes me feel like shit. just like i am not worth the time. I'm I worth the time? I hate how some people who are supposed to be my friend make me feel like shit and make me feel ugly when i am around them.

but you should see me today, i have gotten a lot of praise about how i look. I did my hair, make-up, heels the whole nine yards. I'm hott!!! but does it really matter? no one i was going to see can see me. so yeah, feeling a little like shit.

oh just a heads up I'm going on Day 4 with like 8 hours under my belt. weeeeee for me, things are starting to get really funny.

Haters

2007-09-13T16:59:00.000-06:00

I just want every one to know that if you come here to get angry or look down at me. Don't come here!

I write what i feel.

If you come here to read my posts, look at my pics, or see who i have as friends. That is fine but when you get to the point where you get angry about any of it, DON'T COME HERE.

This is a fun place for me to write, and post pics of people i know now, in the past, or hell even people i don't know yet. your know me I'm a witch.

so thank you
warning over.
K

True, True.

2007-09-13T16:58:00.000-06:00

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All I want.

2007-09-13T05:55:00.000-06:00

I know my life is going to be hard, when has it not been in the last 23 years?

I know that i want to love, but i also know i want some one who loves me back.

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InSide

2007-09-12T23:57:00.000-06:00

Deliverance in spite of this
What do you see if not me then who?
Is it a stupid girl or the leader of the new world
If you don't see me for me
Then see me for what I do not for what you hear
Speak to me not your boyz
To me as a reason for you being here
Ever think of that?
You think I'm just talkin but have you heard any Stuttturing of any word I've said

NO

So in these words of mine don't hold your grudge
For you to stand there being nothin
Your not even known anymore
Your just a number that no one cares for now
Got to get up and see what is up there
Never known what every one thinks is supposed to be perfect.

Blue..

2007-09-12T00:49:00.000-06:00

The only animal I sleep with.

Pretty, True?

2007-09-12T00:47:00.000-06:00

Lips to Lips

2007-09-12T00:45:00.000-06:00

Lips to Lips,

Mouth to Mouth,

Comes the speaker of the shrouds.

Suck in the spirit,

Speak the words,

Let secrets of the dead be heard.

hatter

2007-09-12T00:41:00.000-06:00

He's mad as a hatter,

Mad as a hare.

Go to the woodlands,

but be you aware.

Look for the ancients,

who shelter form storm.

but first you must pass throught the lair of the wyrm.

9/11/2007

2007-09-11T13:38:00.000-06:00

OK so happy anniversary of 9/11. sad for people who have lost things and people.

but i have happy memory's of that day 6 long years ago.

enjoy what you have and treasure who you have, and fight for what you need.

About to Break

2007-09-10T03:18:00.001-06:00

Crazy Cat

2007-09-10T02:54:00.000-06:00

All Better...

2007-09-08T02:12:00.001-06:00

So i am really pissed off right now. i feel so agitated that I'm numb. i have 14 days until my family leaves Iowa on there trip here. on Monday it will be 14 days until i leave. I want to have fun memories here but just feel like i am not worthy of them. tonight i am going to go out with a friend of mine. she will be bringing her husband that she is getting back together with. Do i take Doug? I don't really feel like that is the right thing to do. i really don't want to cause a big blow up. her husband is a really big jealous prick some times.

I feel so alone. Being alone is like Being stabbed. And baby I have so many knives in my Back.

I'll put up new pics later.
feeling unloved
K

a ~z

2007-09-07T01:44:00.000-06:00

[A] - AVAILABLE? yep
[B] - BIRTHDAY? sep, 27
[C] - CRUSHING? Kinda
[D] - DRINK YOU LAST HAD? Vinilla Coke
[E] - EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO? Jennifer
[F] - FAVORITE COLOR(S)? Black, lime green
[G] - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS? ewww
[H] - HOME? wha?.
[I] - like being sick? naw
[J] - JUGGLE? no clue
[K] - KILLED SOMEONE? I can't tell you
[L] - LONGEST CAR RIDE? Minn to New Mexico
[M] - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR? choc
[N] - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS? 1
[O] - ONE WISH? safty
[P] - PERSON WHO CALLED YOU LAST? ryan
[Q] - QUEER? wha>?ER*#&%^$#)$
[R] - REASON TO SMILE? Love
[S] - SONG YOU LAST HEARD? dana cook
[T] - TIME YOU WOKE UP THIS MORNING? 7 AM
[U] - UNDERWEAR? right now? nothing
[V] - VEGETABLES? not so much. . .
[W] - WORST HABIT? swearing
[X] - X-RAYS YOU'VE HAD? lots
[Y] - YOUR NUMBER OF FRIENDS ON MYSPACE? 34
[Z] - ZODIAC SIGN? Libra

11 people

2007-09-07T01:34:00.000-06:00

1. ryan
2. norton
3. doug
4.sabine
5.rus
6.heather
7.sara
8.jason
9.lindsy
10.josh
11. bella

How did you meet number 4?
thru PSU
What would you do if 6 and 2 were going out?
laugh i think they are both funny
Where did you meet number 8?
at Sabines
What do u think of number 7?
she's hott
Have 3 and 10 ever met?
ummm no i don't think either of them knows the other exsists
What would you do if 5 Confessed they love you?
be weired out
Is number 1 your best friend?
something like that
Whose 10s best friend wit?
no clue
Do you miss number 1?
yes
Is number 9 cool?
yeah she rocks like a party star
What is your opinion of number 6?
she is so sweet
What would you do if 1 and 4 were going out?
uh freak out. and left out, and most likly upset.
Who does number 2 like?
no idea
Do you have anything special with number 11?
she will always be my bella
Have you ever been inside 10's house?
nopers
Do you love number 8?
i don't know does 7 know about it?
Have you seen number 3 ever pee their pants?
no but i may be wrong
Have you ever kissed any of them?
yup
do you have a crush on any of em ..?
something like that

bored

2007-09-07T01:29:00.000-06:00

1. What bill do you hate paying the most?rent

2. Where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?ryan's home

3. Do you regret losing your virginity to who you lost it to?not one bit i might even bost about it

4. If you could go back and change one thing what would it be?alot but in the end nothing

5. Name of your first grade teacher?no clue, i remember mrs. ferno

6. What do you really want to be doing right now?sleeping

7. What did you want to be when you were growing up?doctor

8. What college do u attend?none

9. Why did you choose the shirt that you have on right now?cuz it was in the bathroom when i
showered

10. What are your thoughts on gas prices?ass rapeing

11. If you could move anywhere where would it be?Iowa

I2. First thought when the alarm went off this morning?DAMN IT

13. Last thought before going to sleep last night?i wish i could sleep

14. Favorite underwear?my lime green thong

15. How so you sleep? on my tummy

16. What errand/chore do you despise?dishes, you never know what is living in them here

17. If you didn't have to work, would you volunteer?yes

18. Get up early or sleep in?sleep in

19. What is your favorite cartoon character?scooby doo

20. Favorite thing to do at night with a girl/guy?cuddle

21. Have you found real love yet?yes

22. When did you first start feeling old?when i started getting migrans

23. Favorite 80's movie?earth girls are easy

24. Your favorite lunch meat?honey ham

25. What do you get every time you go into Costco?What is a costco?

26. Beach or lake?beach

27. Do you think marriage is an outdated ritual?not at all

28. Do you own property?no

29. Favorite guilty pleasure?i could tell you but then i would have to kill you

30. Favorite movie you wouldn't want anyone to find out about?double dragon

31. What's your drink?liquid cocain

32. Cowboys or Indians?i don't care i love costumes

33. Cops or Robbers?once again costumes

34. Who from high school would you like to run in to? I think Dixie

35. What radio station is your car radio tuned to right now?no idea, had to change the battery

36. Norm or Cliff?wha!!??

37. 'The Cosby Show' or 'The Simpsons'?simpsons

38. Worst relationship mistake that you wish you could take back? I wouldn't have said no, and
let him break up with me.

39. Do you like the person who sits directly across from you at work?i don't work

40. What famous person would you like to have dinner with?Christina Ricci

41. Indoors or Outdoors?both

42. Have you ever crashed your vehicle?no

43. Have you ever had to use a fire extinguisher for its intended purpose?no

44. Last book you read? i don't really know

45. Do you have a teddy bear? blue zebra

46. Strangest place you have ever brushed your teeth? middle of the forest

47. Somewhere in California you've never been and would like to go? all the beaches, santa cruz,
san diego

48. Do you go to church? no

49. At this point in your life would you rather start a new career or a new relationship? i am
doing both

50. Just how old are you?23 and 24 in two weeks

me

2007-09-06T22:01:00.000-06:00

update owwy leg

2007-09-06T21:59:00.000-06:00

High school pretty

2007-09-05T14:55:00.001-06:00

me

2007-09-05T14:44:00.000-06:00

meow

9/4/07.7

2007-09-04T15:39:00.001-06:00